Steel?

Nothing was hidden in the darkness,
everything had just changed colors

The air,
heavy from the rain
My arms,
goose bumps crept up the skin

On that black steel park bench
lights cast shadows across the grass
Surrounded by chatter
and wine sodden laughter

Cars honking
footsteps echoing off brick walls

All I heard was your sharp breathing

They escaped
wouldn’t stop fighting

Could I calm the storm?
Could I break the haze?

On that black steel park bench
lights cast shadows across the grass
Surrounded by chatter
and wine sodden laughter

the clock ticking in my brain
down
down
down

quarter turn and I am falling

five crimson tear drops
four smothered screams
three blinks
two shaking hands
one deep breath

so sweet and full
so timid and haunting
pressing on my lungs

puts mind into a frenzy

My life is an integrated circuit
I’m inside of my body
But I don’t feel it

You just think its funny